I've been thinking about posting this for a while now. Just needed time to really think about what I was going to write.
Now I've never really been a believer in god. Especially as if there is one he let some pretty shit things happen to me so far. I was raised to believe in god though, but soon gave up once the bad stuff started happening. Of course at first I asked him for help but nothing came.
I never really thought much about it in the years after that. Of course, I still speak to my father on a regular basis (even though he's been dead since I was 7) because I found it a good coping strategy. Here I am 37 years later and I still do that. But any way, I digress...
My now ex wife's father died about two years ago. To say she took it badly would probably be the understatement of the year. Any way, she kinda lost her marbles after that and things were never the same. She was determined to start doing research ETC and ended up stumbling upon ITC one day. Without going into tons of frankly quite boring information there are numerous ways you can do this. But, I will explain the logic behind hers.
You need a laptop/PC anything that can play a MP3 or WAV. You then need a player for that, and a MIC and recorder. Now the way she was doing it was using what is known as a "gibberish" file. Basically they come in various shapes or forms, but you usually use one that is not in your language and therefore if anything does "come through" it will be unmistakable. So my ex used to use a Portuguese gibberish file (IE all in the native tongue of the Portuguese) but also reversed using Audacity. So this was pure, unadulterated gibberish.
Now for the most part she would lock herself in the bedroom for around 11 hours a day doing this shit, and I had no choice but to basically just let her get on with it (she becomes terribly angry and abusive when you stop her doing exactly what she wants, hence why we are not married any more) but yeah, I used to just laugh when I thought about it.
Any way, she reckoned she had contacted this "team" on the other side. It is led by a guy known as Monty, or to the great unwashed Montague Keen.
http://www.montaguekeen.com/page127.htmlWho died in 2004. From the waffle that my wife used to push into my ears (forcibly, as I really wasn't interested) he was one of the biggest ITC researchers ever.
OK, so after a few days she starts getting these messages. I would be forced into listening to them before I went to bed (even though I totally wasn't interested) and some of them were pretty clear. Some of them, however, I could not make out at all. She reckons she could, but whatever.
And then it happened. She said that Monty had told her she wasn't good enough for the project (because of her past, I am not going into that but it's all on her!) and therefore they would not work with her. Of course then she flew into a mood and became physically abusive toward me. At first I just shrugged it off, then one day she punched me in the stomach. That was about two weeks before I threw her out (literally and physically) however, she then claimed (because she still thought I was interested) that she could no longer contact "Monty" but instead was getting to people who were horrible and nasty. Again I just figured she had completely lost her mind, then I sit down and listen to one (forcibly again).
She begins asking if there is any one to speak to that day. All of a sudden this voice, in English, as clear as a bell says "F**k off you c**t!". From that moment on I was convinced. I mean, she had some good stuff before that but I had never heard anything so clear and so concise.
Then recently I noticed an article about DNA. And how it was pretty much instructions, and how they must have been made by some one...
It hasn't really made a difference. If any one ever asked me about religion and god I would just say how I felt, IE "I believe there is a higher power out there somewhere that created all of this" but that was where I would stop.
So what are your feelings on this? I know it's a pretty touchy subject and the nihilists will just discount it but I'm not deaf.